Feeling Low

Today we learned that moms kidnwys are showing signs of improvement. Blood test results will determine how soon she will have her central line surgery. Hopefully, it will happen within 24 hours. They highly encourage her to eat because she is not getting an IV of nutrients. She drank yogurt drinks with us. She also had a Glucerna. Her white blood cell count is lower (a good thing), but she does have a low grade temperature. The head nurse took time to provide us with detailed information for which we are thankful. Moms skin is so sensitive to the touch that giving her a bath today was nearly unbearable. She requested Jenn, Elise, and I to do it. It was too much. It was grueling, painful for all, and not very successful. These kinds of situatuons make this process seem unfathomable. Not too mention that it extremely drains ones energy. It can become exhaustive to maintain optimism. So, even with promising news todays collective spirit feels less than promising. You want to be angry at someone and theres no one to blame. Thats where we are in this moment. In this moment, that is our truth.